Just a Dream

I've had this dream
For several years now
You come to me
during the night
Sneaking in my window
you crawl into my bed
and you just lay there
running your fingers through my hair
i know your there
because of a feeling
my heart races with every touch
as I open my eyes,
you are gone
and I'm alone
because it was just a dream.

Chelle - October 29Th 2007

Dreams and Things - Chelle

My god the lack of inspiration
No words come to mind
Just old memories
And dreams.
I wished there was some way
Some how, we could go back in time
You and me
Reliving a memory
Sweet memories
Your eyes how they trapped me
deep in hazel settings,
and how you wouldn't let go
But one day
You disappeared
You only reappeared once after that
And If I listened to my heart
I would have begged you
Pleaded to take me with you
But that was then
This is now
Things are different
Probably for the best
But who knows what lies ahead

Chelle - March - 17 2006

Boredom #2 - Chelle

Never have I ever!
Been so bored with life
So bored with where I am
Loving and caring
Nearly things of the past
For him at least
I experience pain and sorrow
Thinking this can't be real
But it is
Just like everything else.
Normal
Typical life
All I have to say
All I want to say is
Fuck You ALL!!!

Chelle - September 6 1997

Boredom

Boredom begins
And life ends
Sleeping causes the day
To disappear
So I sit amongst
My insanity
Kittens visit my dreams
To make the sanity less and less tolerable
I hate my boredom
My boring life
But what is there to do?
A woman of my age
Can go into the night
But not do much
Old enough to know
To young to find out
boredom slaps me in the face
Typical nightly occurrence
Maybe I should leave this
Pathetic
immoral world
Or perhaps
stay and wait it out
But whatever path is taken
Will be the wrong one
But yet the right one.

Chelle - August 17 1997

Love, Like, Hate - Chelle

Never running
Never fleeing
Never poor
Never stealing
Always scared
My mind all twisted
With everyone's stares
Why me I ask you?
Why me out of all the others?
I presume I am special
But yet I think I am stupid
A little girl
Such as myself
Could never know what love is
No experience
No excitement
Always bored
Always ignored
To much pain
Makes me Insane
Like I have asked before
Why me?
Why choose me out of all the others?
I guess I'm just bait
Better yet wait!
My feelings grow
Not of love
Nor hate
Something which you can relate
Love and like and hate and love
Three things in which do not exist
Yet, love is pain
And hate is pain
But like is love
So there for pain
Feelings do not exist
There for love and hate are real
Love is pain and hate is pain
But feelings exist no more.

Chelle - March 17 1997

Love For You - Chelle

A deep sigh escaped my lips
The feeling of loneliness is very much present
I lie down upon the bed
And close my eyes
I see a vision of you
Your figure is burned
With in my eye lids
every time I blink
Every time I sleep
I see you
Your loving embraces
Your gentle kisses
Oh how I love them
Your gentle glances
Lure me closer to your heart
So many years I have tried to find thee
But I have had no luck
But now
now I have you in my arms
Holding forever
And forever shall I never leave
My love for you
Is like the red red rose
Always beautiful
Always fresh.

Chelle - March 17 1997

Prey - Chelle

Wondering along the path
Singing a little tune
Thinking of his wrath
Wondering why he is the way he is
Running my fingers through my hair
I sit by a babbling brook
Wondering why I am with him
Leaving my true love
Not knowing what would happen
Wishing I could Change it all
Looking at my life to come
Wondering who I will be with
Wondering if I will be alone
Or with my true love again
Walking alone through the woods
I feel like I'm the prey
And he is the predator
Hiding amongst the trees
He watches me
Trying to guide me to and open field
Waiting to strike
My true love not there to protect me
Not there to take care of me
Wanting him to return.
So I may leave me evil, My depression
One day I am hoping
My wishes shall come true and I will be with him forever.

Chelle - August 12 1996

Never Alone - Chelle

Every time we talk
My mind is there
Thinking of the talk
Thinking of where to go

My soul yurns for your love
The feeling which is so young
Growing with help from above
And singing the songs that need to be sung.

Your touch is like the summer breeze
Soft and gentle
Whispering wonderful praises
Into my ear.

I sing this song of love and happiness
Fearing the day
Of having to experience loneliness
Of you going away

We shall be together
For as long as we live
Never fearing leaving one another
And never loving alone.

Chelle - February 4 1996

Dreams That I Dream - Chelle

The dreams that I dream
Are of you
The dreams of happiness
Are of you
The nights mysteries
Are only between you and I
And the love in which we share
Are of you and I
May the dreams of
Happiness
And love
Carry on forever
may we never part
By bad terms
Only may we part
By death.

Chelle - January 27 1996

Age has no meaning - Chelle

Looking into his blue eyes
I begin to think
About what
I do not know
Holding him close
Cuddling ever so comfortably
I begin to feel something
What, I do not know
The way he smiles at me
Is incredible
Astonishing
A man of his age
And a woman of mine
Should not be
But, we could be
It does not matter about age.
Nor do looks
Personality
It's what makes a person
Not looks or age
Personality
As he kisses me softly upon my lips
I feel secure
A shiver goes up and down my spine
A strange but slightly familiar feeling

Chelle

Touches - Chelle

You are my heart
My soul
Your words search
Feelings unimaginable through my body
The feel of your soft hands
Taking my hands
Sends shivers down my spine
The words you speak and your gentle touch
is sensationable
If you stopped talking
Or stopped touching
Then I would have to die
For the sounds and touches are gone.

Chelle - October 21 1995

Night and Day - Chelle

As the day begins
Night turns to day
And day turns to hell
Voices shout
Yell!!
Scream at me!
But I keep my calm
voices
Irritating me
The annoyance grows
Until I am almost bursting at the seams
But I stay calm
The day runs by fast
And the day turns to night
The dark curtains close
As I begin to feed on my victim
My frustrations flow away
And now I am content.

Chelle - December 6 1995

Messy Mind - Chelle

My mind
All messy
So many thoughts
So little time

You come to me
Asking that I marry you
Because
You love me

It adds to the collection
Of thoughts
Thinking of an answer
Thinking of an excuse
Something to say

Scared to look at you
But the urge is strong
The power from your eyes
Make me look

I steal a glance
But I don't look away
you capture my gaze

Your wonderful
Blue eyes
Your soft blonde hair

I don't think about the question anymore
Because I know the answer.
YES!

Chelle - November 29 1995

Hurting - Chelle

When will the pain end?
Why do you do this?
I have been hurt many times
My heart, crushed
Everything is gone that reminds me of the pain
Why do you do this?
One week you tell me you love me
And the next I'm your little sister
When will the hurting end?
The knife keeps twisting right into my heart
Your gone
Outta my life
And you will not be apart of it
Ever again
Life and friend.

Chelle - September 10 1995

Used Time and Time Again - Chelle

I've been used
Again and again
And the silence ends.
My life over
I am gone
Forever shall
No one remember
My memory of him is gone as well
only because he used me
Time and time again
The night silenced
And the coldness is here
My life is gone
And my thoughts as well.

Chelle - 1995

I Never Knew - Chelle

I never knew
The pain
The suffering
You put me through
Agony
I have never ever been through
But I will always have the pain
From when my heart was broken
And forever the memories will go
Through my mind like a needle
Into my eye
The pain will never stop
But, It will only end
When you are gone.

Chelle - September 13 1995

Friends - Chelle

A friend
is someone you trust
If a friend turns on you
You turn to dust
A friend
You can love
But if they kill you
You go to the clouds above
I have a friend
He is a real sweetie
But sometimes and only sometimes
He can be a real weenie
But to you my friend
A soul companion
A friend to have forever
But only to ones opinion
So just remember
I'm always here so if you have any questions
I will lend you my ear.

Chelle - April 30 1995

What are Friends - Doug

Friends are those that care
They care for you and everyone
Friends share
They talk with you and not run.

Friends have fun
They sometimes never shut up
Friends are your sun
If somethings down they cheer you up

Friends love
sometimes on the magic ride
Friends are like a dove
They're beautiful inside
Friends treat you with respect
And that's something everyone should get.

Doug - April 22 1995

Darkness - Stacy

I was happy
But now I'm sad
Like the river that has been polluted
By another hand
For the love that I once had
Has been torn from my heart
Like a tree from it's ground
I was made a promise
For the love would never end
But now,
That promise has been broken
Like shattered glass on the ground
I miss the one that loved me
Like a Queen
For I was his flesh and blood
He hates me
like and apple hates the worm
But there is nothing
I nor the apple can do
But wait it out
for the lord knows
What came between us
But I do know that someday
I will be free
From the darkness
That has come upon me
This day.

Stacy - January 21 1994

Used - Chelle

You were there to make me laugh
You were there to make me sad
You never kept any of your promises
And you still hurt me
Even if you didn't hit me
I loved you when I first saw you
But as I got to know you
I didn't love you at all
You used me to get to the people around me
And then you dumped me
Even without telling me
I sometimes wish things were different
But I know that will never be.

Chelle - September 20 1994

Hurt - Chelle

His eyes look at me
Through the darkness
He had thoughts of love
And passion in his eyes
Many years ago we loved each other
But since then
We've drifted apart
Now that we see each other more
We are getting our feelings back
But I can't love you
The way I use to love you
Only because
I don't want to hurt you again
And then I would have to perish
I would die
On a bed of carnations
All from hurting you.

Chelle - September 27 1994

Do You Know? - Chelle

Will someone hold me?
Someone please tell me?
Is everything ok?
I need to know.
I need to find out!
Please tell me.
Is he out there?
Do you know?
Did you hurt him?
Please tell me no!
Please let him be safe.
Please tell him
I love him.

Chelle - November 11 1994

Privacy - Chelle

I only wish privacy
Privacy with my love
And only my love
No other people
Just me
Just him

I want to kiss his lips
Hold him close
And I will never
Never let him go

Just two
Holding each other
Still tight
Still close

We kiss a kiss
A small little thing
But that's all we need
Need to stay together
Forever.

Chelle - December 1 1994

Free? - Chelle

It's been days
Even nights
He has not been out
And I have been trapped
I wish to be free
Free from life
Free from humanity
If only it was simple
I dream of you
At night
Alone.

Chelle - December 8 1994

Lord of Sorrow and Joy - Chelle

Lord of Sorrow and Joy
A man of death
A man of happiness
This man gave me so many things
So many feelings
The Lord wonders through his lands
Helps the dieing
And kills the healthy
He's a jealous man
Being the immortal he is
The dead become his servants.

Chelle - December 8 1994

Insomnia - Chelle

Many times I sleep at night
Thinking about how things would've been
But now I sleep no longer
You stay in my mind continuously
All the time
When I blink I see you
I see you where ever I go
I miss the times we had
You use to kiss me with such ease
You use to hold me in your arms with the warmest of touch.
But now your gone and I'm alone
Alone in the world,
Alone in a dark world.
With no one around me.
And so I perish
Perish in the night of shadows.

Chelle - October 3 1994

Romantic Dinner - Chelle

You sit across from me at the table
Two candles separate us
In front of us a feast
But as we gaze into each others eyes
It's not a feast anymore
It's just you and me
Our hands touch
We grab hold
Our eyes never to leave never to part
Incense burn
The lovely smell in the night
How romantic.
We hold each others hands
And keep gazing as if reading one another's thoughts
Then at the same time we whisper.
I love you.

Chelle - December 9 1994

Once Wrote - Chelle

You remind me of the poems I once wrote.
You made me happy
My poems made me happy
But it's the feeling which go away.
You couldn't stay for me
Because of your feelings
You were afraid
Afraid of those feelings
You were always running away
Because of how old I was
I tried to make you happy
But it did not work
You kept running
And I kept hiding
I hid my feelings many a time
From the dangers of a black heart
You still remind of the poems I once wrote.
But only when I read them.

Chelle - December 9 1994

Secrets - Chelle

You and I have so much in common
We smile, we breathe
But you have kept something from me.
Something small
But important
In your mind there is something
Someone or something
Something else has developed in your life.
Other than I
But you have not told me yet
The day you tell me will be a sad one
There will be blood shed and death
All because of this little thing.

Chelle - December 9 1994

Imagination - Chelle

His imagination ran through the shadows
Indeed a strange night
Graven terror runs through the streets
Pallid
Motionless
The moon over head
Goblets full of a liquid
A liquid with in man
His imagination feasts over the drink
The sun begins to rise
And the moon is extinguished
Over the mountain ridge.

Chelle - December 9 1994

Destiny - Chelle

That's what I like
I don't go after what I want
I should have
Before that one day
The day you got married
But you married the one you love
And that's all that's important.
I love you and always will.

Chelle - December 2 1994

Creatures of the night - Chelle

Darkness fills the valley
Night falls to death
And blood shed
The shadows wonder the valley
In search of a soul to sacrifice
The shadows are of men of the night
The women and children of the valley are protected
Protected by the gods above
Safe from the shadows
Safe from the evils of the valley.

Chelle - December 2 1994

Seen It All Before - Debivino

Pull a heart sting
Then let it go
Now, does the scar show?
I don't want you back.
Now that I know you heart is black
You didn't know me
yet you didn't say a word
Don't trust a boy is what I learned
I was not convinced to be put down
Pushed over or stood up
You did all three.
I was Fucked.
I don't care anymore.
I got a new life to tour.
I can see right through you.
I know your truth.
You weren't as strong as you said.
Nor as hurt you want me to see and I've seen it all before.

Debivino - December 1 1994

Heart Break - Chelle

My life is hell
And hell it will stay
Only because of everyone around
And the people I use to love

memories fill my mind
My heart snaps in an instance
Because you never said hi
and so I began to cry

I wished you would come back
Because I need a friend
I need a person to talk with
A person to be with

My life is over
It's all done with
hell has won
Because of you.

Chelle - November 29 1994

Comfort - Chelle

Tears appear in my eyes
You held me close
You held me tight
I wished you knew
I would tell you
But you would run
I want you to stay
Stay with me
If you leave I will be sad
My mind destroyed
My heart broken
Only if you leave
I want you to be here
Here with me
Always
Never to leave
I have only one thing to say
It's a special thing
I want you to stay
Because I love you.

Chelle - November 28 1994

Scared - Chelle

I love someone
But he has yet to know
My feelings are incredible
If only he knew
Every time I hold him
I think of how much I care
How much I love him
How much I care of him
His eyes dark
His feelings hidden
Wanting to know what to say
Wanting to know of what I know
I have yet to tell him
Afraid of what he'll say
Afraid of what he'll do
I'm afraid
He's a grown up
I'm not
I'm still a child
One day I will tell him
One day I will say
I love you
And always will.

Chelle - November 28 1994

The Harlequin Rose - Chelle

Sitting in the overcast of night
Wishing for freedom
My roots hold me down
But I still dream of that day
The day that I shall be free
It begins to rain
A slight trickle
Then a down poor
A drop of rain slides down the white petal
A purple streak tells of a story
A story of love
A story of death
It 'tis be I
The Harlequin Rose
A white petal a top
With a purple streak
If only I could be free
And never die.

Chelle - November 28 1994

I Wish - Matt

I wish I could hug you with all of my might.
And tell you everything is all right
I wish I knew exactly what to say
I wish I could make your problems go away.
No matter what you're going through,
I will always be here for you.
I'll never turn my back on you,
I'll never walk away,
I'll always listen patiently to what you have to say
I hope to never see the day when I won't have a hand to lend
And I hope there never comes a day when I won't be your friend.

Matt - November 23 1994

Pain - Matt

Will the pain go away?
Or will it forever stay.
It's always with me it seems
It even haunts me in my dreams
When will it all end?
When will my heart mend?
My mind is tortured day and night.
With myself I constantly fight
Can anybody see?
What is happening to me?
Or am I all alone?
To reap the pain I have sown.

Matt - November 21 1994

Battered Mind - Chelle

Her dark eyes
They glow in the night
She walks through the streets
Hoping she might find
Find the someone she wants

Her throat dry
Her clothes torn
Only from the beating
The beating he gave her

Her eyes swollen from the hits
Her arms battered and bruised
Her hair a mess
But she sill goes on.

She carries a weapon
Not of gun or blade
But of memories
Pictures and feelings.

She hopes to find him
Sit him down
Show him the pain she is in
Show him the pain she was in

She will never forget what he had done.
The pain she received
The pain she will remember
She will never forget the day he died.

Chelle - November 21 1994

Another - Chelle

I once loved him
But he left my mind
He left because he loved another
And another he will only love
For I have made my mind
He can leave
And forever he will be gone.

Chelle - November 21 1994

The End 2 - Chelle

I wish for the end to come
I want it to end
The pain
The suffering
I was in love
But it died
He died when I heard
I heard he loved another
I wanted to spend life with him
The rest of my life
But it will never happen
No more pain please
No more suffering
Rest in peace
I want to sleep
Sleep for ever
And alone.

Chelle - November 19 1994

Untitled #1 - Jerry

You are like the sun
You are bright, kind and caring
And when you are around on a cloudy day
It is sunny for me

You voice is like a nightingales sweet summer song.
When you speak, angels bow their heads in shame

When people say that a picture is worth a thousand words
That goes for you,
You are even better.

When you pick a rose
The sweet bud is jealous of you
All of the flowers in the world still would not be as
Sweet smelling as you.

What a guy has to do to get you to notice him.
I know not.
But this I can tell you
I love you with all my heart.

Jerry - November 16 1994

Innocent Witch - Debivino

Pure eyes lined in sinister black
The innocent witch is formed
Heaven made her, and wants her back
The innocent witch is born.
Her eyes boil like sulfurous mud
As she giggles like a teenager
She'll shriek your name and drink your blood
And smile at your flavor.
The innocent witch is sweet and kind
But if you hurt her I'm sure you'll find out
She'll wave her hands and weave a spell
To make your life a living hell.

Debivino - November 15 1994

The Man - Chelle

The clouds overcast the day
It turns dark
It's not night
But it is dark

A man in black robes
A stench of formaldehyde
Fills the air
His pale face
His black clothes

The undertaker
He works with bodies
Bodies of people
Souls of animals

This man who wears the robes
Who performs the burial
He creeps into the night
He laughs at the sight of death

The clouds part
The sun comes out
The gloominess leaves
And the happiness returns.

Chelle - November 15 1994

The Day - Chelle

I smile for the day
The day you come for me
We will talk
And we will smile
For we will love each other
Forever
We will be together
And together we shall stay
You make me smile
And you make me sad
But the day
The day will always go on.

Chelle - November 15 1994

The Sounds - Chelle

I wake in the night
To the sounds of crying
The echoing of sobbing
I try to go back to sleep
But it's no use
The sound gets louder
The sounds get more violent
A voice yells for help
Finally it's quiet
All is silent
The only sound that is heard
Is the sound of something dripping
Blood or water
I look out my window
I see a man
With a happy grin
And a disappointed look
A look of unimaginable feeling.

Chelle - November 15 1994

Loneliness - Chelle

Loneliness is my name
And dieing is my game
You still hold me
And you still hate me
Oh well
I'll survive.

Chelle - November 14 1994

I Sit - Chelle

I sit and listen
Listen to the sounds of church
Even though I am not religious
The choir sings a hymn of love
And equalness
God loves everyone
And so does his son
Every man is equal
And every man deserves to be loved
But if he does not love god
He is not Equal
And he is condemned to hell.

Chelle - November 14 1994

Smoke - Chelle

I sit outside
Smoke fills my lungs
As I smoke my cigarette
I sit and think of you
We had fun times
When you were around
I take another drag
And I let it out
You keep invading my thoughts
Your eyes
As blue as they are
Searching into my soul
And your hair
How soft it is
Another drag
And it all dispapears
My mind fills with thoughts of love
The love that I wish I had
But it disappears
Like everything else.

Chelle - August 10 1994

Rain - Chelle

The rain fills my eyes
Only when your not here
I miss you when your gone
And I think of you when we are apart
Many times I die
But only in my dreams
My thoughts are of blood
And of death
My contacts blur
As I fall asleep
Asleep forever
And never to wake again.

Chelle - October 5 1994

Wishful Thinking - Chelle

I remember
Holding you in my arms
My fingers
Running through your hair
My teeth
Gently nibbling your ear lobe
My lips
Caressing yours
We loved one another
But only once
The day I saw you
And the day you left
I still love you today
But I know
I'll never have you again.

Chelle - August 8 1994

The Red Rose - Chelle

The red rose
It holds love
It hold feelings
But not my heart.

A red rose is so common
I'm not a common person
I seek the love of another
But only of a man
Not a flower.

I dream for the day he kisses me
And he takes my hand
He loves me
And that I know

A flower is nothing but a token
A token of affection
But a kiss,
A kiss holds the feelings of a lifetime.

Chelle - August 8 1994

The Seer - Austin

I see your mind
Don't hide it
I know who you are
Don't lie
I know why you hurt
Don't deny it
I know your heart
Don't defy it.

Austin

Everyday - Austin

The death of day
The dawn of night
Rise from the grave
To rejoin the fight
Immortal death
Unending life
Each step of joy
A stabbing knife
Blood of myself
Falls from my eyes
Tears fall like rain
And I realize
Life and death are not so far apart.

Austin

Remnants - Austin

Fire burning
I'm a flame
Ashes, ashes
Cinders, dust
Charred bone
Wisps of smoke
My fires out.

Austin

Suicide - Chelle

A sharp metal blade
It glistens in the sunlight
Only to lay
And shows it's delight

I've been hurt many a time
But nothing like this
I said to myself it was time
Time to leave this.

The depression overwhelmed my mind
It took over my body
Only because he left me and died
Died because of somebody's love

We loved like non other
Together we were one
When we felt each other
Now he was dead and gone.

So I go to meet him
Next to one another we lay
For we are one again
In our little family.

Chelle - July 27 1994

Nothing Else Matters - Chelle

The music blared
It was a good song
A slow song
It told of love
And of feelings
"Nothing Else Matters"
That's what it said
You were the only thing I needed.

Chelle - July 27 1994

Pain - Chelle

The blood drops down to the dirt
I feel no pain
The only pain I feel
Is that of love.

Love stabbed me in the back
It stabbed me clear through
The pain is to much
So I die quickly but I feel no pain.

Chelle - July 19 1994

Love - Chelle

Sometimes in life
Love appears
Appears out of no where
And when it appears
It's the best thing
Love can change the way you feel
The feeling for another person
Another who you could spend
The rest of your life with.

Chelle - July 19 1994

The Black Rose - Chelle

The black rose
It pricks me
And makes me bleed
Red blood
The blood trickles down my wrist
It makes a red stain
Down my arm
My white shirt begins
To turn Burgundy
The black rose has
Pricked me many times
In my heart
And the pain I seek is
Not in my heart
But in my mind.

Chelle - July 16th 1994

Creation Of Life - Chelle

The miracle of life
How stupid it is
It's painful but we still
Go through it.

If we were born in water
Only be being sent there
Life would be painless
But only for awhile

When Adam and Eve were here
They pain they went through for love
Is the best thing
That had ever happened.

Chelle - July 16th 1994

Shadows - Chelle

The shadows creep
They move silently among the night
They search for blood and human flesh
They hunt all night till they are satisfied
Which is really impossible
People roam the streets
And so do the shadows.

Chelle

Building - Chelle

Walking along
As if in a dream
I see a brick building
About the size of me
It was not much bigger then a tree
And it was not much bigger then me
I climbed to the top to see if I could die
By trying to fly and seeing if would die
Well surely enough I did
And now I wish I hadn't.

Chelle

Swirl of Nothingness - Austin

Life is a swirl of nothingness
You live
You die
And nothing never changes
The world keeps turning
And the people idle on
To live, to work, and never to see
Nothing ever matters
And nothing ever changes
Miniscule people
On a miniscule world
We make no difference
In the big picture of things
And we go on
With the flow of the world
until we die
And the rest go on.

Austin

Moments Passing - Austin

Look into the sky
Overcast in gray
Waiting for the night
To chase the sun away
Dark thoughts pervade
Have I gone insane?
Millions of voices
Colliding in my brain
I fall to the ground
Crash to my knees
Sweet love oblivion
Set my soul free!

Austin

Untitled #1 - Austin

Please no innocence
You hold the bloody hammer
You stand above your victim
Shattered all around
I charge thee villain
With this dreaded crime
You have killed him
Yet it is he who must suffer
And now you dance around him
Sing your songs, and laugh
While he picks up the shards
Of his hopeless broken heart
You can pretend.
You can lie
Say you didn't see
But deep inside
It's there
And deep inside it grows
He walks to the shadows
And begins to fade away
And still he looks,
And longs from far away
In his eyes you are innocent
But what about your own?

Austin

Gypsy Nights - Austin

Daylight falls
Gives way to night
The quiet land
Grows dark
The demons come
From out their dens
And dance
The Dance of Death
Then shadows part
And there steps out
His highness
The stately Lord of Sorrows
He bows with a grin
And silently sits
Upon his thrown
Of Brambles and Bone
The demons praise
And bow to him
The Last Clown Prince of Death
Then daylight comes
To banish them
The night courts
Of the kingdom of mourning
And he fades into the shadows
From hence he came.

Austin

My Feelings - Chelle

I remember the day
The day you kissed me
I had a feeling
That you would miss me

The kiss that you gave me
Was more powerful than it seemed
I ended up loving you
And you the same thing.

We loved for awhile
Then we drifted apart
All because of work
And the fact, you had a black heart.

I still love you to this day
But only a little bit
For you have hurt me
With all but a hit.

We used to go to movies
When you had the time
But now your working
And your never mine.

I wish you would return
For I miss you so,
I know you love me
Because, I know.

Chelle - July 8th 1994

Insane - Chelle

It was many a year ago
And I was lost
Many people say I was insane
I agreed in every way
I was locked up many a time
But only long enough
To try to get me sane
I feel sorry for the people who worked there
Only because
They had to put up with me
And my insanity.

Chelle - July 8th 1994

Hurt - Chelle

My love of my life
He has hurt me
For the love that we shared
Was very special to me.

We had picnics
And lovely times
But I knew that the end was new
He just didn't care

He tried to love me
But it did not work
For he fell for another
And we split forever.

He says he still loves me
But I don't believe it so
Because if he did love me
I think I would know.

Chelle - July 8th 1994

The Edge - Austin

He stands ready
On the football of his soul
Taking one last look
At the world he called his home
He looks with in himself
And finds the strength to let go
Twenty stories down
He finds peace.

Austin

He Sat - Chelle

He sat looking at me
He looked at me with incredible eyes
He sat and pondered
He pondered when he would love again
He sat and gazed
He gazed deep into my soul
He sat and looked at me
With love and death in his eyes.

Chelle

Eye Story - Chelle

His eyes are dashingly pretty
They tell a story
Of great love and friendship
The color tells me
That he is confident
And punctual
And that he would love no other.

Chelle

Hourglass - Chelle

My life is like an hour glass
Second by second
Hour by hour
A Grain of sand falls
Each grain represents a feeling that has been hurt
Feelings are fragile
And they die quickly
Once the glass is empty
The feelings die
And the world goes dark
And life is gone
You live in a world of darkness.

Chelle - July, 06 1994

Laughters Curse - Austin

From out the shadows
The Jester crept
Upon his throne
He sat and wept
The warmth of day
Now was his bane
Condemned was he
To nightly games
A shadow now
Was his only from
His playful grin
Now cold and worn
Sunrise comes
The shadows flee
Till darkness brings
The Jesters glee.

Austin

Terminal - Austin

Finish it now
If you want the end
But I shall be dead
If I can't be your friend
The final word
Is not mine to say
If truly it's ended
I die on this day.

Austin

Guilty Heart - Austin

I was down on my luck
Now I'm down on my knees
At one time you loved me
Now I'm begging you, please
Give me just one more chance
I may not be the best
But, both of us know
I'm not like the rest
You pulled me into the light
Uncountable times
Let me plead guilty
For love is my crime.

Austin

Journey - Austin

Down a river in my mind
Cross a bridge to the other side
Cut a corner to make some time
Jump the tracks and keep going
Off the beaten path into the brush
Run through the walls in your way
Leap from the cliff to the river
Float on my raft of despair
Crash over the falls into the white water
Lie on the rocks, and sleep.

Austin

Surrender - Austin

He walks down the road
The lonely road
Into the doorway
The door to beyond
Up the stair case
The stair case to the top
Over to the edge
Edge of the rooftop
Takes his first step
To the freedom below.

Austin

Joyful Despair - Austin

Light fades
The curtains of shadows part
A cloak is removed
Reveals a smile
A mischievous grin
Donning his old garb
The Last Clown Prince of Death
His court begins
To please the Lord of Sorrows
Yet still his eyes are bitter
For his external torment
Is to be forever
Consumed by despair
And bound to the shadows
The parade goes on in force
Yet, with their Prince
Fades away as the daylight rushes in.

Austin

Devil - Chelle

His eyes look at me
They look at me with a seductive grin
He looks at me with love in his eyes
But he'll never have me
For i'll never love the Devil.

Chelle

Whistle of the past - Austin

A mighty call
A hurricane
You hear the sounds
But see nothing
A bellow
No, a scream
All at once
The sounds depart
Perhaps 'twas a dream.

Austin

Bright Eyes - Chelle

His eyes are bright
They look at me
Look at me with passion and love
He gazes deep into my soul
And he searches for feelings
Feelings that I have hid
Hid because they might hurt
Hurt his soul,
And his heart.

Chelle

Shadows Step - Austin

Landing on the sand
Whimpering softly
And rushing past
Moon light chill
Shining crests on the waves
Lightning storms
Striking down with a rightchous hand
Walk away
And seek again the love of life.

Austin

Poetry Information

From this point on I am going to be transcribing the poetry that I currently have and just put it up here. So alot of it is OLD! and some will be new. But just a heads up as well, not all of this is by me, some of it is by friends from the past and current. So please look at names at the bottom and dates for the author.

Thank you
Chelle

A Figment Is What I Am ( Chelle - 11-16-1994 )

The sun shines on my shoulder
I begin to cry
I cry happy tears
You are here next to me.

You take my hand
And pull me close
We look into each others eyes
And we tell each other
We love each other.

You smile at me
You give me a slight giggle
A kiss is a gift you give me
And a thing that is called a huggle. <1>

We met each other through a wierd situation
We live passionately over imaginated lives
Words tell what we feel
Not touches.

The time we met was great
We watched a movie
And held each other close
We both thought it was rather nice

You like my massages
I like your kisses
And now I have to return
To your dreams.

1. Huggle: It is an old BBS term back in the day that we used for hug. hehe. How cute ey?

Twenty One < Stacy >

The road was long
The ride was rough
In my heart it seemed to tough.
Parents were nagging
Siblings were rivaling
And my mind was always wandering
Day after day
Week after week
Month after month
Year after year
Would my 21st Birthday
Ever get here.

Well the time is near
And I must say
I am in some what of a dismay
For with the arrival of this day.
I shall lose my childish Ways.

Stacy

Sacred Rose of a Jesters Heart

The fool is a loner
By nature alone
Yet with in him is fire
Within his own bone.

The fool bears a gift
For his only desire
A stem and a bud
That blossoms in fire

A white petal a top
With a violet streak
A smile on his face
A tear on his cheek.

The fool leave his gift
And begins to turn back
He fears for himself
And the courage he lacks

A simple rose
With no simple meaning
A lonely shadow
Fades in the evening

His second gift
Is a token of heart
A small quiet thing
As he turns to depart

A simple kiss
With no simple thought
A kiss and a rose
That the Harlequin brought.

Austin

Burn < This is my favorite out of all of my friends>

The sweet taste of honey
Is still upon my lips from yours
The taste that lingers
Burns upon my soul
As no fire could.
But the burn is wanted,
For it fuels the very fires of my passion
The unquenchable fires in my soul
are only quenched by you.

The sweet taste of honey
I still, STILL, upon my lips
From yours
The taste that sets fire
To dreams unimaginable
Except by me
And you.

The sweet taste of honey
Lingers still
Upon my lips
From yours

Kevin

The Candle

Looking amongst a dark empty room
Alone in the night
The only light shown
Is but of a candle
It's flame dancing with the wind
Never predictable
As if it were human
Stepping to the right
Then changing course to the left
Not slowly
But quickly
The emotions never staying the same
Always changing
Shifting like the tide
Waters waves crash amongst a sea of night
Smashing into the one lonely rock
Sitting alone
amongst a dark room
And the only light
A single candle flame
Disappears
Just like my thoughts
But not like the loneliness
Loneliness that burdens me
The loneliness in which never changes.

Chelle

Longing For Love

I feel a longing for love
An old love calls to me
But the love is so far away
Love only talks to me occasionally
But when it does
Wonderful memories arrive
And I miss this love
Thinking of kisses shared
Of romantic moments
To return
But there is a new love
That blocks the path
From the old love
I want more love then ever
I don't want to fight
I don't want to feel excluded
To feel wanted by one love
Not the one I have
But the one I don't have.

Chelle

Shadows

Shadows creep Through
The depths of a canyon.
As the moon rises
They dance against cliffs and crevices.
As we walk amongst
The edges of the giant hole,
We relate facts of love
And disappointments to each other.
You rely on me to be there,
As I do you.
You treasure our friendship
And our love, as I do you.
But there is always some
Shadow,
Some secret,
That will always stay hidden,
Either in the crevices
Of the canyon walls,
Or the cliffs below.

Chelle

Dreams

You ever have that dream,
That you are being chased?
Or that you are with
Someone other than your lover?
Now, have you ever had
Those dreams awake?
For many a year now,
I dream nightly of freedom.
A change from what I
Have had for the last few years.
The constant degrading,
Yelling, Fights, jealousies.
If I could change
every thing
That has happened over the
Last few years,
I would start
Over And change so many things.
But since the Time Machine
Has yet to be invented,
I'm stuck with the life path
That has been handed to me.

Chelle

Life Time

I have seen many things,
In my short lifetime
That I wouldn't believe
I would ever see acts of War,
triumphs of peace.
Soon, we shall Experience
New technologies,
Improved ways of life.
But what life has shown
Us so far
Is that there is always
Something, A catch If you will-to
Everything.
We can not have cures,
Unless we have disease.
Peace without war,
Love without hate.
Who says life can be
Perfect,
We can always hope though.
Till that perfect day comes,
May we all pray for days
To come Of good health,
Love And happiness.

Chelle

Poetry Blog Intro

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